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Saturday, 23 July 2016


Hello friends! It feels like a really long time since my last post- not even a month, but it just feels like the longest time. I wanted to write a quick post about my frequent blogging hiatuses, and feelings of creativity and everything that goes along with that.

Anyone who's been following this blog for any length of time will have noticed that my posting is spasmodic at best. It's not that I don't love blogging, or that I find it a chore in any way. I genuinely adore it and the whole blogging process gives me so much joy, being able to do everything I love wrapped up in one fabulous hobby. I blog because I want to share my thoughts with other people, and create things, and take photos and write about fashion and post the odd photo of my cat. But I think that for quite a while now I forgot these basic reasons why I started blogging in the first place.

You'll have noticed if you've been reading B&L for a while that each year I've set myself the goal of posting once a week. Each time, I'll stick to it for a couple of weeks or a month at the most, but then I'll lose inspiration and get caught up in uni and just won't have the time to post. I feel this is a bit of an endless cycle for me; the more time that goes without posting, the more pressured I feel to produce content and so blogging ends up hanging over my head a bit. This has happened so many times and is just such a creativity killer for me.

I really care about this little space and I think I've gotten too caught up in writing for other people. I don't want to post something unless it's really high quality and my very best work. This is great in theory, but in reality it has meant that I get demoralised when an idea doesn't turn out how I originally envisaged it and I don't end up posting anything at all. I also get quite conflicted with the sort of content I want to be producing. I have grown to love fashion so much more since leaving school and really want to shift my blog to focus more on that aspect. But, on the flip side, will I come off as narcissistic? I also am yet to get over my embarrassment/reluctance around having people take photos of my outfits in public, which is obvi a major roadblock in the way for someone who wants to make fashion-related content.

I've been thinking a lot about this, and have decided it's time to bring it back to why I started blogging in the first place. From now on, I'm going to focus on what I want to write about and remind myself that this is all about expressing my own creativity. I don't want to set any big posting expectations on myself, either- I'll post when I want to and when I feel the creative urge. I'm not going to kick myself over not posting, or worry that I'm posting too much and oversaturating my readers. Some weeks I might post a lot and other times I won't, and that's okay.

I'm not entirely sure what changes (if any) there will be to the actual content of my blog, but you can expect:

 more fashion posts
 more little DIYs
 more bits and bobs about my life
 more videos
 more writing

While I do want to create content that I want to create, I also want to make sure it's things that you will enjoy. So please leave me a comment with any thoughts you might have- I am open to anything and would truly love to hear your thoughts on all this!

In conclusion, thank you so much to all of you who have stuck around and read my ramblings- I truly appreciate you all and am so incredibly thankful for your support! I'm so excited to embrace this change and start creating freely once again. Much love x

7 comments:

  1. I relate to almost everything you said here - the pressure to post regularly, holding myself up to high standards, and especially the reluctance to ask someone to take photos of my outfits! I really want to push myself to try something outside of my comfort zone though and I hope you will too - just remember that your embarassment is all inside your head - in reality, neither the photographer nor anyone in public really cares! (at least that's what I tell myself when I feel overly self-conscious) :)

    x Christine | http://apaperescape.tumblr.com/

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  2. There's so much pressure to keep pumping out the posts that it can be creatively draining! I've been there too! Hang in there and keep at it!

    www.thebeautydojo.com

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  3. I think we all go through this phase - earlier in the year I posted every 2 days consistently for about 2 months but now I haven't posted in 2 weeks and I have no promising drafts. Sometimes you need to step back to have more content to write about x

    Erin | beingerin.com

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  4. Hey Zoe! I've been a fan your blog for the longest and it comes across in your writing that you genuinely do love what you're doing. Keep your chin up, and know that it always puts a smile on our faces when you post :)

    Shenga \\ iamshenga.com

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